what a day.

well it's official today i was the angel of death... well that's what it felt like. I have had pretty healthy patients up to this point i guess. Well none of them were knockin on deaths door anyway. Today both of my patients passed away. One was already brain dead when i came onto the floor ..( i was in ICU) we had to talk to her family and they decided it was time to pull the plug. The other lady was stable when i got there and ended up crashing later that day. It was a tough one. the one lady had a 14 year old daughter there. Tough Tough some how i managed thru it and didn't cry like i baby liek i felt like doing. anyway that was my day. I have to go back to icu tomorrow so i'm hoping i don't have a sign on me that says please die while i'm here.. I can't handle much more of it this week.